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Do not read this review unless you have completed books 1-5 of the Experiment in Terror series!

Here's the thing, I spent a lot of time reading this series and wondering exactly what was going on in Dex's head. Why he chose to act the way he did, or say the things he said. I just knew in my gut that, no matter how dickish he got, it was a defense mechanism and inside was a very damaged man trying to protect himself from more pain. I'm not saying it excuses things, but perhaps makes him more understandable.

Dex has been through so much in his life, and he was looking for a bit of a safety net before he could put himself through the chance of more heartache. After reading Pippa's book, and the first two chapters of this one, can you really blame him?

"Are you in love with me?"

And there. It was out there. I was admitting nothing myself but it had to be obvious that I was asking for a reason. That I wanted her to say yes. I needed her to say she loved me.

Then I would be a bit safer when I fell.

Oh how much pain and suffering could have been saved by the both of them, if only Perry had told him the truth.

Spoilers ahead!

And can I just say, I knew exactly what Dex was thinking when he lost it after they finally made love. I knew that he was in panic mode because he realized how much she meant to him, and thinking she didn't love him back. Dex's childhood was lacking so much love, it was so full of abuse and hatred, that love was scary to him. Add to that, when he finally allowed himself to love a woman it ended so tragically, leaving him damaged and broken. He was falling, and he believed it was without a parachute or a net, so he lashed out.

I was head over heels in love with her. No, that didn't describe it. I was tear my fucking heart out and throw it at her, beg her to take it into hers. I was falling from the greatest heights with no safety net below. I was giving everything of my own life for hers, giving up every inch of my soul so she could wear it proudly. I was a former king on my knees in front of the queen. A jester begging for a chance. I was powerless, helpless and at her mercy.

And that was the one place I swore I'd never be again.

To love was to hurt.

I wasn't strong enough to survive it again if everything went wrong.

Again, I'm not saying that makes his words okay. But it does make me understand why he tried to slam up a wall between them. I absolutely believe, in my soul, that if Perry hadn't gotten possessed right in that very moment she would have gotten upset, then either the next day or a few days later they would have talked about it. I have to believe this, because otherwise I lose respect for Perry. The person who supposedly knew him best would be able to see that he was hurting. Oh, man, if only she'd told him the truth in the first place, how different it would have turned out. I guess that's why they called that book 'Lying Season'.

Spoiler ended!

They had some great scenes they reversed in this book. But here are some others that I thought would be GREAT to read from my lover Dex's perspective.

1. Darkhouse - Dex telling Jimmy off when he brings Perry to meet him.

2. Red Fox - The fake kiss with Sarah, and then the REAL kiss with Perry in the tree!

3. Dead Sky Morning - Dex seeing the casket pushed into the lake, then pulling her out and seeing her, thinking she was dead.

4. Lying Season - three scenes; Perry finding Dex in the alley after he sees Abby, when Perry got home from the club and them dancing wild in the living room, and when Perry finds Dex outside after Jen left with Bradley, aka 'Sir Swagger Douchington the Fuck'.

But for the amazing scenes I DID get! A+